I’ve been absent from the blog for a while now. I won’t apologize because I just felt I had nothing to say or write about and I didn’t want to waste your time or mine coming up with something arbitrary and pointless. I now, however, do feel like I have something to say. Here goes:

I’ve been busy. Very busy. I keep telling myself that. It’s true. I’m not telling a falsehood when I say it. Between my full time job (46 hrs/wk right now), multiple church activities (deacon duties, Sunday school teacher, youth group teacher, etc), and the responsibilities of home ownership along with my own little side projects, I don’t have much free time. Or rather, I don’t take full advantage of the time I have. I admit, when I have time, instead of doing things I’m often paralyzed by having to pick something to work on over another thing so I get little to nothing done on anything. I’m busy, yes, but it shouldn’t keep me from doing what I want/love/enjoy to do. Instead, I find I need to make time to do the things that are for me. It doesn’t always work out, but I’m getting better at it.

It’s spring time in central Mississippi. Seeing as how I work I the plant industry, it’s arguably the busiest time of the year (hence the long work weeks). I tend to be worn out and beat down by the time I get home every day. So much so I don’t even want to do the things I enjoy. I just waste my evenings in front of the TV, stuffing my face. Yet, when I make myself do something for me, like play guitar or work on a project, it makes me feel better. It’s like I feel I’ve accomplished something. Spring is busy, but I still need to do things to relax and rejuvenate me. What good is any overtime if I’m too exhausted to enjoy the fruits of the labor?

Now, I do need to apologize. When I first started this blog about a year and a half ago, I mentioned that I was working on making an album of my own music. This has not happened, obviously. I let life , busyness, get in the way. I got frustrated and gave up. I walked away from writing any music or lyrics for a while. I’m sorry. I apologize to myself and to my readers. I let us all down. I’m getting back up and I’m going to finish writing and recording my music. It may not be perfect or professional, but it will be mine and one going to finish it.

Thanks for letting me ramble and flesh out some things going through my head. I hope my attempt at encouraging myself is helpful and encouraging to you. I’m going to try and do better about regularly posting here again. Thank you.

I spent almost an hour working on a post last night. It was titled Happy, Cultist, Robot Freaks and it was pretty good. I set it to post itself at 6:45 this morning and what happens? The WordPress app doesn’t post it, so I go to find it and post it myself and it’s gone. I’m so frustrated right now! I was so tired staying up and working on that post, and it was pointless because it got lost! In the words of Charlie Brown, “AAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!” This is the second time I’ve lost a whole post. Is anyone else having these problems since the latest ios and wordpress app updates?

What are your dreams? What do you want to accomplish? Where is your life going? What do you hope to do/be? All valid questions. The problem comes when all we do is talk about these answers and we never pursue them. We tell ourselves that we’ll go after this dream or that accomplishment once we’re in the right place financially/jobwise/lifewise and we keep talking about what we want but we do nothing to go after it. The only difference between dreamers and those who accomplish things in this world is that somewhere along the way those who accomplish things stopped dreaming and started acting. If you wait until the stars and moon and sun all align just right and you’re in the right place in your life to start going after what you want, you’ll never start. My generation and the one after mine are especially bad about being all talk and no action. We write blogs about these great ideas and dreams, but they never go further than that. We post on face book about these lofty ideals, but we never try to change our life to meet them. We have pithy tweets about what wrong in our society/country/world/neighborhood/church/etc. but we don’t do anything to fix it. We love to complain and tell everyone what they’re doing wrong, but we don’t want to do anything to be outside of our comfort zone, and we definitely don’t want to have to take on any responsibility. And here I am, complaining about it in my blog, yet I haven’t done much in my life to end the trend. How do you stop being stagnant and start being active? When I figure it all out, I’ll let you know. I think the first step is simply picking something small to believe in/pursue and acting on it, then going from there.

Who’s Responsible?

October 25, 2013

It seems with each generation society becomes less responsible. We like to pass the buck and place the blame on someone else, usually the previous or next generation for leaving things how they are or for trying to change everything. One place I think we can really see this is with the “video games make kids violent” argument that is so popular. First off, I played hours upon hours of video games from the Atari to arcades to the xbox360 and ps3, and I’m not violent because of it, honestly I’m probably less violent because I could work out my frustrations with the world through that medium. Secondly, there’s one thing nobody seems to mention when blaming video games. Where are the parents? Too many times parents blame their kids’ misbehavior on “those evil games” but it’s never mentioned that they have a responsibility to know what their kids are playing and what’s appropriate and what isn’t. Parents are supposed to talk to their kids and know what’s going on with them. Parents should be highly aware of what their kids are doing, but they aren’t anymore. Instead people make their kids the responsibility of anyone and anything else. They sign their kids up for every program they can so they never have a free moment in which to be a kid, but always have another thing to get to and are always being pressured to preform academically and on the field. Is there anything wrong with a little pressure? Of course not, but when it’s constant and your kids’ schedules are busier then most adults, that’s not teaching them to deal with pressure, that’s throwing them in a shark tank to teach them to swim. Packing more stuff into a kids life isn’t going to teach a kid to be responsible or keep a kid out of trouble they way spending time with them and knowing what’s going on in their life (this includes the games they are allowed to play and punishing them when they break the rules) and setting a good example of living a balanced life can. So let’s take some responsibility. It’s not video games making kids violent and brats, it’s no one taking responsibility for their own actions and nobody setting an example. Kids will act how those they see act, therefore if parents don’t take responsibility and are jerks, their kids will be that way too. We need to teach kids wrong and right and responsibility for our actions and the place to start is with ourselves.

Feeling Rough

October 11, 2013

What do you write when you feel there’s nothing more to say?
What do you do when there’s nothing leading the way?
Write a little poem about how you feel
But the feelings are gone, they’re no longer real

Keep pushing through, make it to some rest
Trust in God, he knows what’s best
Easy to say, but very hard to do
Can’t someone help, just give me a clue

What’s it all about, what does it really mean
When I just feel hollow; broken; never clean
How do you keep going when you’ve lost your way?
Why should you keep speaking when you’ve nothing to say?

What is this fascination people have gotten with having their fries be mushy in the last few years? When I was young, we sought out the crispest fries we could find. We wanted them to break, not bend. Now, fast food places and sit down restaurants are all going the way of the thick, mushy fry. Why? Crispy fries are so much better. Don’t even get me started on sweet potato fries. I haven’t found a crispy one of those yet. I think it’s something to do with the sweet potato not being able to ever really get crispy. Please, if anyone has any information as to why our society and restaurants have swung to this extreme, I’d like to know.

The Week in Review

September 27, 2013

So this past week has been crazy. Sunday I fell out of a hammock for the first time ever. I was folding it over to make a seat, but had it strung too tight and with not enough angle, so it wasn’t balanced and I got thrown. I didn’t have it super high, but it shocked me. Monday I found out I was going to have my first full day off since my vacation because of the weather front coming in Tuesday. I also got a migraine in the afternoon. Tuesday, the weather didn’t come as forecasted and I had to go in for a couple hours in the morning. When I got off I crushed cans and cleaned some in my office until my migraine came back full force and made me want to rip the back of my neck off and poke my eyes out to pull the pain out of me. You already know I stated Wednesday thinking it was Thursday. It seemed the end of the day would never come. My migraine came back a bit that afternoon too, but not as bad. Thursday I just wanted to stay in bed. I didn’t sleep well at all. The end of the day on Thursday I got a call saying one of the crews had flipped the smaller tractor and I needed to get the big tractor out there. So I had to get on the slow behemoth and make the twenty minute tractor drive out to the job site. On a small bridge a school bus passed me and made the bridge shake and the wind from the bus shook my tractor. It was not fun. Now it’s Friday. I hope it goes well. I have work, then my wife’s high school reunion is kicking off at a football game tonight. Then tomorrow I have work and another reunion thing. Another busy weekend. Sorry this wasn’t exciting, but I just needed to get my week out there. How was your week?

Neighborhood Driving Etiquette

September 13, 2013

This past week I’ve almost been run over by people speeding four different times. The really bad thing is that these people are speeding in my neighborhood, where there are a bunch of kids waiting for busses on every street every morning. Three of the four incidents were not teenage/young drivers, they were 30-50 year olds who should know better. These people were not only going 35-40mph in a 25mph zone, but were not coming to complete stops at stop signs, not giving right of way to people when going around vehicles parked on the side of the road, and not paying attention to what they were doing (every one of them was on a phone typing or talking). Here’s the etiquette for driving in neighborhoods:

1. Go the posted limit or slower. There is never any reason to be going faster in a neighborhood where pedestrians are everywhere.

2. Pay attention to what is going on around you. You never know when a kid may chase a ball out into the street and you NEED to be ready.

3. When vehicles are parked on the side of the road, anyone on the un-blocked side has the right of way. That means you wait on the blocked side until the unblocked side is clear.

4. Always come to a complete stop at stop signs. None of this rolling stop stuff. First gear isn’t stopped either.

5. Be calm, patient, and polite. Don’t get in a rush. When you’re feeling stressed and hurried you’re more likely to make stupid driving decisions, so plan ahead and don’t get rushed.

That’s it. It seems common sense enough to me, but apparently people can’t even drive properly and safely in neighborhoods. Please be more careful, not just for me, but for all the residents in the neighborhoods you drive through.

What dumb stuff have you seen people doing behind the wheel in neighborhoods?

Sleeping is Over-Rated…

September 4, 2013

I haven’t been sleeping very much. I think it’s a mixture of too much on my plate, getting a little overheated at work, and to much on my mind. Last night I felt physically sick. My wife and I had the same food and drink, so it had to be the other stuff. How does one turn this stuff off? I know I need to be more careful at work, but how can I shut my brain up when I want to go to sleep? It seems even when I sleep, it’s restless. I’m tossing and turning all night and waking myself up constantly. I took melatonin last night and it helped me fall asleep, but I still woke up several times and had a restless night. I’ve got to get some things done so I can mark them off my list and feel less stressed. Hopefully I can make some headway today. Sorry I’m just complaining and not very interesting today. My brain just isn’t working on all cylinders.

Five Minutes to Closing

August 30, 2013

Why do people wait until it’s almost closing time to come in? I can understand if you are working and can’t get away until then, but 9 times out of 10 it’s someone who isn’t working and just decided to wait until the last minute. These people could’ve come in at any time during the day, but decide to come in 5 minutes before closing making me late counting the money, closing down, and getting home. I have a theory that people who do this must never have worked for retail, otherwise they would understand and try harder to not be last minute shoppers. I’m pleading with you, if you do this, and can help it at all, please stop! It literally drives those of us in retail crazy. If you’re on the receiving end, please remember to be polite and don’t lose it. I think most people do this out of ignorance, not to spite us.

Have you ever had to deal with this? What are your thoughts on why people do this?

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